So, I am currently in bed feeling so worn out I could cry. Sadly, I have been here many times before and I’m sure will be here again in the future. I’m not sure whether I have burnout, having come across it on several internet posts recently.
I went on holiday about five weeks ago which was nice but stressful due to the change of routine etc. Then, after a week back at work, I had to go on a school residential for a whole week. The week was quite difficult and extremely tiring being in charge of children 24/7 so, naturally, I started with a cold and sore throat. This progressed onto sinusitis and I’m just recovering from it now.
I’m not sure if it’s a combination of all these different stressors but I have started to find things that were fine before to now be incredibly difficult. I feel really overwhelmed by the slightest of situations, am finding that I am more sensitive to noise levels and feel generally tearful and delicate. I am finding it even harder than usual to make decisions and have to try really hard to stop myself from ‘zoning out’ when things become too much. I can barely hold myself together during the day and when I get in my car to drive home, I keep crying.
Like I said, I’m not sure if this is autistic burnout or something else. I have been through two periods similar to this before and ended up taking time off work. Both occasions were before I received my diagnosis. Unfortunately, I really don’t feel that taking any time off work is an option at the minute but I am also worried about things becoming progressively worse unless I do something about it.